It’s hard to be close to people when your life goals are so drastically different

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
  in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.”

~Proverbs 3:5-6~

Cause and Effect 

Random observation - So many guys my age are obsessed with working out; or at least talk about it a lot. I guess it’s reflective of the world we live in

“Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ”

~Phillipians 3:8~

love the reaction of the opponents

Lying in bed and just about to sleep it suddenly hit me. I have faith. Faith that comes from being convicted by God and the Holy Spirit. I will never be able to deny the truth. Even if all logic fails and all evidence seems to point against; God is real. Previously I would have been stumbled by the slightest and smallest doubt. Letting it grow in my mind until it would become a huge stumbling block. I personally believe that faith is blind no matter how many ways people try to say it isn’t. It’s blind in the sense that unless you have been convicted, there is no reason why you should believe (at least for me). There is no distinct evidence that can prove God. Except His love when he touches you personally. That isn’t something that can be seen. Don’t know what my point in typing this is but was just thinking to myself what a big difference there is when you are absolutely convicted in the mind and not just emotionally/in the heart/soul (if that even makes any sense at all).

“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see”

~Hebrews 11:1~

Okay, time to sleep

You are stronger, You are stronger

Sin is broken, You have saved me

It is written, Christ is risen

Jesus You are Lord of all

Dear Lord, please give me the desire for you because I can feel it waning in my heart (I fear it’s being hardened again) :/ the emotional high is gone and I’m now relying on my mental resolve to continue seeking you each and everyday. But I shall keep fighting. Thankfully in my QT I’ve been reading about how it’s what we do when we’ve left our ‘mountain top’ experience that really counts. Do we return to our old ways and just wait for the next emotional high? Or do we recognise God for who He is and continue to seek Him with reckless abandon? I NEED to choose the latter. But I cannot do it by my human strength alone.

“be prepared in season and out of season”

 From 2 Timothy 4:2

I will not stop fighting. 

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me
And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need
I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me
And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need
In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion